Patients is a virtue…

Finally starting to feel “normal”. Well, as close to normal as I remember.
It has been 9 months since I was diagnosed with breast cancer. 6 months ago I had both my breasts removed. That is when my body took the biggest physical hit of my life. Starting chemotherapy shortly after left me with no time to regain strength, and continued to suck the energy from me.
I have been so impatient.
Being my last round of treatments, I want so badly to get back to the power I am accustomed to. But I am weak. My muscles have not been used in such a longtime. Climbing a small flight of stairs leaves me shaky, and breathless. I am out of shape. I need to keep reminding myself that even though I am finished with chemo, it isn’t finished with me… yet. The drugs are still cycling through my system. They need to run their coarse.
My body is going through changes. My skin is so flaky and dry, it’s unreal. I am going through menopause, and experience hot flashes 30+ times a day. This consists of stripping off layers of clothing in a mad clammy panic. And the insomnia… exhausting.
My “chemo brain” hasn’t subsided. I forget words mid sentence, which is very frustrating. And continue to find silverware in the garbage. Not sure why I keep throwing out our forks and knives?
On a lighter note, my hair appears to be growing back. Still to thin to tell if it is coming in a different colour or texture. Have to wait and see. πŸ˜‰



3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Mom
    Apr 20, 2013 @ 13:00:08

    YAY for peach fuzz! πŸ™‚


  2. Shell
    Apr 20, 2013 @ 21:34:14

    Congrats on coming so far with such feisty beautiful resistance! A friend emailed me your site, and I was really moved by your experience – we’re the same age, I’m a valley girl too – it hit home. I read your post reminding we lasses to do our self breast exams, and as I read I had a little feel, and found an enormous lump that scared the crap out of me. Likely benign, it’ll be biopsied and we’ll go from there. But waiting for the verdict was a tough time, with little babes at home – it made me think about this journey like nothing ever has.

    I just wanted to say a huge thank you for sharing your story and spreading the awareness – you’ve made a difference in my life. Wishing you and your fearless battle-strong cells all the best – you’re doing it!! Shell


  3. Catherine - Facing Cancer Together
    Apr 21, 2013 @ 09:34:34

    The strength will come, though if you have any friends who are physical trainers, they might help you fast-track if they know of some good stretches/movements to help your body move the toxins out.


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